Change for better??

Assalamualaikum reader(s),

It's been awhile since my last post, I've been hiatus like I'm dead lol but ayyyyyy here I am, hello friends! How ya'll doin? I hope ya peeps are doing just great over there. I'm doing okay I guess? I don't know. It's complicated but I'm okay, I'm still alive what?!

I miss blogging. I miss the good old days. I still remember I always bukak tudung, salin baju without mandi after I got back home from school then cepat-cepat cop PC kat rumah before anyone did just because I want to share my story on my blog. Most of my posts were about my days in school you know like I'm telling about my friends, homeworks, boyfriends??? Hahahaha I often posted my ex's picture on my blog back then, saying that I love him, his mine, I miss him and stuff like that. Omg  I am literally cringing so hard right now like ewwww Mia! LOL

I personally like to write so much. I have like 6 or 7 journals beside my bed fyi. Not that I write every day though but I always express my feelings there like anything at all especially when I'm sad or down, I'll just grab a pen in my journal then express my feelings into words and yapp it felt good man! You should probably try this out.

So about today....

Today is a nightmare or a dream come true to all UiTM students because... well because today is the day. What day? Result exam keluaq!!! I'm like ffffffffffff I'm dead! For me, it's a nightmare kinda day cus I didn't get what I wanted, not that I have a target or anything I didn't have high expectations but wasn't really impressed of my GPA for last semester which I suck and I have never ever felt this down about my GPA before so yay me! I'm so gonna kick my own ass. Oh yeah, before you assume anything, I didn't failed any subjects *thank god*.

I think I didn't work hard enough sebab tu dapat result macam a piece of sh*t. Wait, can we swear on Blogger? Am I gonna get sue or something? Hahahahahaha meh whatever. You know for a person like me, you will need to be rajin like 100% if not you'll get what I got today lol. Tbh, I really worked my ass off so freaking bad, I studied like crazy but my GPA wasn't satisfying much. Why ahhh always like that since diploma weh! Eh eh but my diploma years was uh-mah-zing compared to my degree life uh hm... damn I miss my diploma life except for my ex- boyfriend, let's not miss that. That's uncool girl, I hope he's not reading this. If yes, then I don't know what to say but.. Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahaha

So today, I kinda texted my friend, Syima. I told her about my GPA and she told me something that seemed to upset her then I realized like "wow, today is such a miserable day to the both of us" hahahahahaha like I don't know man, maybe bukan rezeki kita kot, Syima? But let's work our ass off for our future just like we promised...

Then suddenly we talked about cafes... cepatkan manusia berubah? Hahahahahahahaha we just love cafe hunting even though we don't have money, so to our future husbands please be noted ok! (macamlah ada orang nak kat kita kan Syima)

Ok back to the topic..

I guess I've done so many bad things as I didn't read Al-Quran that often, I eat junks, I lalai dengan internet, I tak tutup aurat betul- betul ermm.. okay this is getting awkward. What I meant is I should probably reflect myself you know, it's for my own good. Hmm.. I had a relationship with someone for goshhhh I can't recall la pulak but I broke up with him and I felt very bad. It's just that I don't know how the hell I somehow turned out to be a jerk and I felt nothing towards him whilst he loved me so much that he cared about me.. A, if you're reading this I am very sorry. You were the best and I hurt you like you don't even have feelings, I just had to be honest and let you know how I felt about our relationship. I'm very sorry and I mean it. Just so you know everything happens for a reason. I hope you will find someone deserves you so bad and I bet she's gonna be so grateful to have someone like like you. Let's pray for that, okay?

Nevertheless, I want to change. I want to improve myself to be a better person. I mean like I said earlier, everything happens for a reason. Whatever happens, mesti ada hikmah (wow I sounds like an ustazah right now) It means that Allah bagi ujian dekat kita because He cares, He wants us to keep on berdoa but heck yeah tak bolehlah kan if berdoa ja, we need to work our ass off in anything we want lah and of course we need to be a better person In Sha Allah everything will be just fine and you'll get what you wanted. So yeah Mia, let's change you and work hard for your future girl!

Goodbye & Sayonara

#UUMSquad

Assalamualaikum reader(s),

I knew it!! I just knew it!! Pemalas memang macam ni, if you read my latest post I said that I'm going to update a new post about my #UUMSquad if rajin, but look what happened?! Hahahahahahahaha this is so me (pemalas nak mampos) I haven't done anything pon at home, been busy with nothing but watching YouTube I guess. I mean this week I'm going back to UiTM and and I know that I'm going to be sad that I can't watch YouTube anymore........WHY? BECAUSE OF THE ASSIGNMENTS, STUDIES AND ALL FML!

So today imma tell you guys about my #UUMSquad. Wait Mia, what the heck is hashtag UUMSquad? Idk about the hashtag though (I mean why not) but UUMSquad is my UUM friends, you geddit girl? Before I got into UiTM, I went to UUM first for your information. I applied for Event Management there and I got it but I didn't like it because I really don't want to further my study at UUM. Well, it's not because I hate it it's just that it's too freaking near from my house (literally 30 mins away ok) and I've always wanted to study at UiTM Shah Alam and I want to continue my study in Mass Communication there since I was like in highschool. 

But, fyi as I registered into UUM I was still waiting for UiTM result whether I get accept or not. My first day of orientation in UUM was fun cus I found my Kptm friend and we got the same course, like how cool was that? I was so scared that I might end up alone (as usual) you know like no friends, walk alone, eat alone etc but Alhamdulillah I met my old Kptm friend, Eyra then I met her roomate, Nana and then we met Syima!!

Fyi, I didn't get a roomate though cus the people yang handle bilik tu tersilap bagi bilik ketua DPP something like that. DPP ni is like your college/ dorm. There are DPP Eon, DPP Petronas, DPP BSN, DPP Bank Rakyat, DPP what else ha? I forgot! So myself, Eyra, Nana and Syima got DPP Eon for our 3 days of orientation. Fyi, if you guys dapat masuk UUM well you guys boleh stay in your own DPP sampailah habis sem like how awesome is that? Tak payah dah sibuk cari rumah sewa so tak bazir duit also bilik- bilik kat UUM semua cantik and tak sempit so no need to worry about bringing too much stuffs ok.

UUM's orientation was okay but too freaking boring tbh but I had fun cus got my bitches with me bro kalau depa takdak memang mati kutu lah jawabnya.. Thanks to them!! Here are some pics I took during our first day of boring orientation and damn we played a lot, gosh rindunya!!!

Below pic from left: Eyra, ME and Syima

Nana wasn't in the pics cus dia terpaksa dok dengan barisan lain as she was wearing a cream tudung instead of white, I know right like wth?? We got so angry at some of the facilitators sampai terkutuk macam- macam. Terkutuk ok bukan kutuk. Erm can or cannot? Hahahahahaha. Btw, salah satu sebab seronok dapat UUM is you guys will get so many kinds of stuffs!!! I mean look at our pics above, kami pakai selendang UUM ok! Only in UUM! Then, dapat denim backpack, file, pencil case, shampoo, cleanser and so on! Sumpah banyak gila dapat sampai expired dah my shampoo, cleanser semua tu (I guess seronok sangat dapat UiTM sampai terlupa nak guna barang UUM lol)

After habis orientation, all of us kena tukar DPP and I got DPP Petronas. The four of us got different DPP which kinda sad though especially Nana sebab dia paling jauh. Eyra dapat DPP EON, Syima dapat DPP Sime Darby and Nana dapat DPP TM (DPP TM used to have my crush lol) Damnnnn tetiba teringat, he's freaking tall and he used to sat in front of me, like are you kidding me?! My heart raced like crazy la tunggu apa lagi!!! Don't get me wrong, I don't "like" him, I just like to look at him. I mean sapa suka tengok sampah right?

I did tell them that I was waiting for UiTM result and they didn't want me to transfer there and hell yeah I felt so freaking bad/sad about it because I already met them and sumpah cakap depa ni baik gila pig, baru kenal sehari pon dah macam orang gila. Masa Kptm dulu kalau jumpa Eyra dok hi hi bye bye ja then bila betul- betul kenal baru tau perangai dia macam mana (paling baik and lembut of course). Syima takyah cakaplah 2 kali 5, 5 kali dua sama dengan aku tak guna. Hahahahahahahahahaha ok Syima jangan marah aku, sayang hang muah muah. Then, Nana pulak pendiam (gelak ja dengaq kami 3 orang Kedah ni cakap even tak lawak) She's from Selangor btw.

We went out to Alor Setar together for the first time and on that day jugak result UiTM keluaq, I was freaking out tapi sumpah takmau tunjuk depan my friends because I don't want to ruin the mood so I decided to check the result diam- diam whilst we were searching for parking in Aman Central then Alhamdulillah I got into UiTM (only Allah knows how I felt that time) but I didn't tell them. I was being so quiet and I pretended like nothing happened. I got so happy that I told my family in WhatsApp group and as usual no one responded (my family is the best) But then my friends semua tanya dapat dak UiTM and I told them that I got it. They congratulated me and they were sad that I'm going to leave. I felt so bad because I really love them cus they really get me you know. When people understand you, it's hard to let them go, kan? Not many people can understand us though (tetiba)

I decided to accept UiTM and leave UUM for good though but yeah life must go on. Ooooo I'm being so serious over here. Who is this? Fyi, Alhamdulillah my friends study kat UUM, so bila cuti boleh jumpa depa and kami semua tak lost contact still membabikan diri memasing lagi till now except for Nana, she quit UUM as she got married with her boyfriend (awww so happy for her) and now she's pregnant like girl, you so fast meh!! Hahahahahaha

My beautiful Nana and her beloved husband

Fyi, disebabkan my #UUMSquad baik sangat to me so I joined them to go to the first week of class (jadi pendatang haram sat) and I had so much fun with them so thank you guys especially to Eyra sebab rajin layan kami pi library (usha laki- laki hensem oopps) Hehehehe dapat jugak merasa belajar kat UUM which was sooooooo awesome guys!! Facilities kat sana memang boek and people there takyah cakaplah semua baik and friendly. One of the reasons seronok dok UUM is international and campur bangsa so you get to friends with Indians, Chinese, Nigerians and so on. DEPA SEMUA FRIENDLY!!! (tetiba rasa menyesal pindah...erm) Banyaklah benda best if you guys sambung degree/ master/ foundation/ PhD kat sana, kalau nak shopping pon habis- habis pi Aman Central hehehehe kalau dah bosan sangat bolehlah pi Penang. Ok nak study ka nak shopping? Nak study buat cara nak study, ceh look who's talking? The one yang selalu broke setiap kali keluar... 

Like I told you guys before, I registered UiTM on my 22nd birthday and my #UUMSquad was freaking sweet that they surprised me and Nana for our birthdays. Nana and I weren't expect it at all, thank you so much Eyra and Syima!!! You guys are the sweetest! I wasn't feeling well on the day they surprised me though, I had allergies and my face was all red but I got so happy and almost teared up, yes! I'm so lucky to have them in my life. Baru kenal like 3/4 days but they made me so happy, tell me how can I not love them?

We did record some videos of what happened on that day, but I chose not to post here though cus I swore too much.... Why? Well cus they were throwing flour on my freaking face!!!  Last but not least, I love my #UUMSquad so much it hurts. I can't wait to see them tomorrow and we gon watch IT people, imma hella scream my ass off tomorrow!! Just wait....

Goodbye & Sayonara